i had such a great week with such awesome people. i’m so glad to have spent time with a lot of other first years who i didn’t know very well or had talked to much until this week. ahhhhh i miss it already…
:)
what a great way to kick off the summer!
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I can’t believe I’ve gone through this so many times, and I still won’t learn. There’s a vicious cycle that goes on with emotions and feelings. It’s a cycle that goes from happiness to sadness to anger to depression to nonchalance and everything in between. I always feel at some point that the world is going to end for me, that no one will ever be there for me and I will never need anyone because I am better off alone. But at other points, I literally love every single thing in my life, and could not have wished for anything more.
You just can’t trust your emotions. They lead you on, tempting you to make rash and impulsive decisions which you’ll most likely regret in the future. They get to your head and consume your mindset, convincing you that you will never be happy. What are these emotions and why do they exist?
I guess it’s just part of being a human. We all have to have these things called emotions or else we’ll just be robots. No excitement, no individuality, no nothing. Just plain old robots. All the same. Sometimes I think about what life would be like if emotions didn’t exist. I know for a fact that it would be a hell of a lot easier, but what’s the fun in easy?
It’s just hard to grasp the fact that emotions are so fleeting. They always seem so permanent and prolonged, but really they’re just parts of your brain that each want some time in the spotlight. I feel so many different things at once or one after another, but in the end they all disappear suddenly. Then peace overrides it all. That’s what I realized about life. It always always seems hard and not worth it at so many points, but in the end, things always end. And you have that sudden feeling of relief and pure content. Maybe that’s why hardships are inevitable in life. Maybe they happen because life is about that point after it all ends—the unexplainable peace that you feel when life stops throwing you all these stupid problems and obstacles.
So I guess you have to work hard to get it, but once you do find that peace, it is so beautiful and wonderful and free. And although it doesn’t last forever, it is still so worth it…and who knows, maybe one day it will stay.
I so wish the pianos in old cabell were open 24/7. I need a release.
i have so many thoughts its overflowing and my brain is overflowing and there is no room but it refuses to use the other 70 percent it can use so i am currently going crazy and the A/C just turned on and its cold now which makes me feel perplexed
Sometimes when I wake up from my peaceful slumber I feel odd snapping back to reality and I realize it’s because I had a weird dream and then this dream somehow makes me feel weird all morning and then life just seems peculiar and different the whole morning
New Life… (by Janice Shen)
I love this outfit
i fail………….. but man i need to stop being a little baby crying over school and not doing anything about it. for once i actually want someone to push me to do homework, go to class, study, etc. because for some reason me alone cannot motivate myself to do much of anything.
!!!!!!!
… And now let the hungriness commence.
ahhhh… always takes me to another time.
just totally created an awkward moment by playing my music really loud from my laptop while my suitemate was on the phone because i accidentally put my headphones in the wrong hole on the side of the laptop. BUT WHY ARE THERE EVEN TWO HOLES
if you eat white rice with cold water like a soup, it’s actually really delicious. try it and agree with me!
Danny is my friend. He writes me things. Okay, one thing. This thing. It’s wonderful.
flawsstitchedwithgoodintentions:
you see,
the problem with growing comfortable
with someone’s company, is that
after a while, you forget to appreciate
the reason you allowed yourself to
reach that state…
New classes next semester = fresh start! :)
I’m so eggggggggggzited. AND FOR LIVING IN AN APARTMENT TOO. ah. so much lies ahead. Time please go by faster…